Desires that drive us

Our own purpose for living, the motivation to work hard, the inspiration to wake up everyday, the dream that makes us sleep deprived, it is the burning desire inside us that is pumping our heart and driving us. Is it not?

After attending spiritual lectures, watching devotional movies, reading the books by religious leaders and out of personal experiences, I had finally realized the fact that all the miseries in our life were the results of the desires that I had had from the very beginning of my life. The miseries were either the pains that I had to undergo to achieve desire or the side effects that come after achieving the desires.

The recent words from a spiritual leader reiterated the thought that had been reiterated every time after I get what I had desired for, "Nothing comes for free". The ideologies such as "good and bad are bound together", "everything that one experiences currently is the result his previous deeds" also try to explain the corollaries of the one base concept.

Thinking about why desire should even exist, created the chaos in my mind and collapsed the ideologies that I had had on dreams, achievements etc. That chaos finally settled down with the conclusion that desires were always been the driving forces in everyone's life; Desires had made people do great deeds; Desires had revolutionized the world; Desires had brought out the full potential of humans.

Yet, when desires would bring misery with it, why should we even possess it for a  temporary happiness? The answer for that question would probably be the state of people to be unhappy with their present. Humans had always wanted to live a greater life and the only way to live such a life was to have a great desire, because desires had always had the power to pull humans to greater living. The achievement of a desire give us the confidence that everything is possible in the world. It also gives a satisfaction in life.

Then the final question arose. When desires had the power to pull humans to greater living, why had not everyone become greater beings? Why could only a very few achieve milestones though most of us had always had great desires? Did the desires really have that magical pulling power in them? The following example would perhaps bias us towards the belief that desires have the pulling power.

If we desire to have a chocolate, does the desire not pull us towards the chocolate and make us eat it?

The answer for the question about the existence of the pulling power of the desires lies in the type of the desire everyone possesses. There comes the term, which I would like to call as, "Desire Chasing". It means the constant action of redefining the desire based on one or more factors.

Now there are two types of desire chasers: the first type are the people who see the possibility of achieving their desires, move towards it and when their desire is in a closer reach, they extend their desire to a higher level and the second is the type of people who have a desire and when they find a better desire, they give up on the first desire and try to find the possibility for the second and if they find a better desire, they quit the second desire and so on, without moving a step towards any of the desires.

The second type of desire chasers are the people do not have the desire to achieve great deeds, instead they have the desire to have great desires. So ultimately, their desire simply pulls them to have a better desire and once they get a great desire in their mind, their desire makes them find a greater desire and hence they would not be able to achieve anything in their life.

So, we should always be careful on what we desire for and we should also note about the fact that desires are going to bring a greater misery, Hence, we should be ready to face the misery to achieve a greater good. Giving up on a desire just because of the fear about the misery that comes with it, is the most coward behavior anyone could ever have. Of all the desires, the greatest desire is the desire that was possessed by Buddha, i,e,. to not have any desire in life. Hence, let me conclude that being desire-less is the ultimate desire of a human.

Interval in Life

Anger and frustration were residing in her face. It was the same busy road, where we had spent our happy days skipping the buses and walking. Those days came in my mind. Her smile, her hair waving in the wind and her laughs after successfully humiliating me, everything just passed during that angry walk, she took towards me.

Oh! She was literally burning the air around her with her anger. My tears melted and started overflowing from my eyes because of the anger that was radiated from her eyes. Then, she came close to me, close enough to sublime me into human vapour.

I stood there paralysed seeing her eyes and then her mouth uttered a few words. The words traveled for quite a long time in air before reaching me. Time had slowed down considerably. "Why are you waiting here?", we're those words.

"Waiting for you, my dear", I told. Wiping out my tears and pretending as if there was dust in my eyes. "You don't have to wait for me. It's all over between us. Go get a life", she told turning her face away. I controlled everything and started smiling, because that was the most expected answer for me and I could do nothing about it.

When she saw me smiling she said, "Don't look at me that way having lost your rights over me. Never ever call me dear. Don't even call me. Forget me. You're no one to me."

My lower jaw dropped in despair and I had that final smile of hopelessness. I inhaled a lot of air, took some time to recover and told, "there's a proverb that says that no one is perfect and since I'm no one to you, I'm probably perfect to you. What say you?"

She was at the top most height of frustration after hearing that. She didn't wanna face me anymore. She started walking away. I followed. She shouted, "this is why I hate you. You're an idiot. You never understand me. You can never do it. You're in your own world. You can't come back to the reality. You are...." I knew she was out of her words to scold me anymore.

She stopped, turned towards me and continued, "you're... I don't know whom you're. I don't care about that. You had spoilt all my happiness and you're responsible for every worry in my life. Why don't you let me live happily? You can never make me happy. YOU CAN NOT. Please let me live peacefully. Please. You had done enough and I could not bare you anymore."

I could not act anymore. Tears were already on my cheeks. I heart started beating heavily that I could not walk anymore. I stood there still hoping she would turn back at least once to give a last look, but she moved away fast and never turned back.

People crossed me, bikes and cars moved on the road. Everything passed so soon and I stood there hoping she would come back.